thankyou for the awesome time at airport yst (:
likes it alot that we spend time tgt on lazy saturday chilling and just do nothing but explore the airport talk read and dream.dreaming abt the future.
if this is love then i guess i'm starting to get used to it alr!
and they actually planted real sunflowers in changi airport so prettttyyy!!
they shld consider planting sunflowers all around sg hehe (:


b, you know your quota theory, they're wrong.or at least, it doesnt apply to me.
superficially i'll tell you its because i want quality meetup, you know, like spending a few hours or the whole day with him rather than just him fetching me back home then talk for 15min and the end.
but honestly, its because i'm afraid that i'm becoming more and more dependent on him.for me this is a big deal, because i dont usually rely on people.
i'm still trying to do the tell him when i work whats my plan for the day and all, and relying on him a little more than i would trust myself to. i still need time to get used to all these crazy things but for now, we're all good.
and i dont take him for granted, ever.
thanks for always being so nice to me, sometiems you make me guilty 'cos i always talk to you about m last time and now him. and by now you'll probably be bored hearing me rant about guys and repeating the same things to me.oops.but thats why you're bestest right? heheh (:

you're pretty crazy this week huh,being exceptionally sweet and having withdrawal symptoms before i do.i wonder whats going on hmmm.
and yes boy, patience please, saturday's only 1plus more day away.even though secretly, i cant wait and i wished it was today.oh wellllllls

because you (out of the blue) texted me and say you're thinking of me.
just a while ago my insecurities' acting up again and i wonder if you ever think of me at all.
and then you texted me.sweet!
its the littlest thing like this that makes me smile and everything worth it.


likes it that we make crazy plans like buy a yatch plus a secret island.hahah.so roarke-ish! (:

" 'cos you know i'll walk a thousand miles
if i can just see you
if i can just hold you
tonight."

its crazy that i'm still secretly thinking of sunday night, and how you always leave me wanting more.

today was wow.
shangrila's food was wow.mosaic's closing gigs were wow.time with you was wow
if life's about the number of moments that took your breaths away, then i'll so blissfully continue this kind of life, where work friends music you and every other small details are constantly wow-ing me.

its either you called while i was asleep (and having nightmares) or i dreamt that you called me.i think its the former. i hope i didnt say anything stupid to you!

still sleepy and all and the weather is so perfect to just sleep
i cant really think of anything better to do on rainy days other than to sleep or cover myself with blanket, read a good book have a hot drink beside me and good music playing.mmm. i'll just do that in a while :)

nightmare and all, i think work is too overwhelming these two days
but work's fun.happy place with happy people.ha! and those smiley kids are so cute they made my day
i kinda like to work cos i wont think of you so much, its going be an obsession like m if this dont stop seriouslyyyyyyy.
its so super unfair that you are the rare few that can messup with my life urghhh
and why am i working next friday :( :( :(
i'll try to switch my shift with someone but i dont know can or not.nooooo :(
sorwie!

sunday was lim's surprise party :)
hope you like the card plus envelope!
we love you lims!

saturday is not-so-secret anymore but its was really awesome
seriously i think riding your bike gives me more adrenaline than riding rollercoaster human wasnt scary at all but cylon was fun! :)
bsg, rom, rapids, enchanted(ha!), shrek 4d, monster rock and and pizza and tiramisu and churos! yay :)
and vivo after that was crazy: haagendazs, chilling at pcc and shopping for your dad's present (ahem!) and all, i'll go as much to say that the wait was worth.
doing the littlest thing can feel so new with you around, esp the shopping around part! knowing your shirt size and all, they're really small things but wow, i've never known M's shirt and jeans size before leh!
would love to get you a tedbarker but too bad its gonna burn a hole in my pocket.eh.today's your lucky day so its okay even if noone gets you anything ha!
you're late for your friend's party thing, and i was late for dinner, but it was all good, all good.
sunday will be another crazy time with you again :)

we both know right?
when your fingers linger on my skin a little too long
or when i look at you in the eyes, a second too long.
the rules are all too familiar, clearly spelt out
but i'll be contented breaking them for you.with you.
people will probably have no idea how many times i've tried to fight the feeling but it kinda failed.
so for now, i'll just work on how i'm gonna get pass myself and see whr all these lead us to.


B stop stalking his fb.tyvm

p.s. i dont know what i've gotten myself into serously. why am i going to listen to seminar hosted by some faculty of business econs and law???? noooo!

" The best and the most beautiful thing in the world cannot be seen nor even touched, but just felt in the heart."

will do proper update soon but not now cos i'm rushing for something
the picture is a clue! :)
awesome day today!

finally did somethnig productive other than play the piano today :)
i'm very very proud of it cos its like my first attempt and its nice :D
this weekend is so gonna be crazy insane plus awesome
cant wait alr! :D

omg i want that dresssssssssss!
and fangs we shld go shop shop again if we have nothing to do hehehe
but must be before you know when!!!
i know you're reading <3

feel like privatising my blog sometimes because i have no freaking idea whose reading. but it will kinda defeats the pt right?

went to the library and read abt those horoscope and your characteristics thingy
you know.then thr's the analysis of birthdates and i read it
not like i actually superstitiouly believe but omg its so true
like the high voltage for thrill is so me
maybe its not only me but also the tenthousand 16august babies arnd the world.
i will go read it more thoroughly.again.soon.

p.s.
really glad that i have a bunch of friends that i can really talk to.those that wont judge and are actually willing to listen to me rant. there just a few really, but they're the best :) and you know its you i'm talking about :)

b, we took a really long detour and a really long time before we can talk like yst night.face to face without awkardness.thankyou for that.i'll as usual think abt what you said, open my eyes bigger and all.but the dont-go-out-with-him-alone thing, i may not be able to promise that.i play with fire yes, but he's not a bad person.i trust him for that.dont worry abt me :)

Had dreams i cant rmb. the only thing i rmb-ed was that in my dream, today's not wednesday, but its the day i finally see you again, and i was so excited then.mmm.

"Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk, but

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception"


i want to know if you'll still love me despite my insecurities
i want to know if you'll still love me despite being surrounded by seriously beautiful people all the time
i want to know if you'll be my new definition of love
i want to know when i'll see you again
i want to know when i'll forget abt anything and everything and just remember moments with you
i want to know if this is not a dream
i want to know if you'll be my only excpetion.

"The one that is meant for us is going to be the hardest to get, the hardest to keep, and the hardest to accept because through all that the love will grow stronger. Love wasn’t made to be easy, otherwise we wouldn’t end up with the right person. We would end up with the first one who comes along. By struggling we single out the wrong ones and realize who really is the one."

when you said you missed me bad, i wonder if i miss you more, or if you miss me more.
i guess we're even huh.
you.musicy.a charmer, part-time sweet-talker, but i'll still fall for you anyway.
so when will be our next date?
haven't seen you in a long long time.

"you know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than our dreams"
Mmm.

i will sleep a happy and peaceful girl tonight, and yeah its probably the last night i can sleep well since doomsday day is tml.

Can someone enlighten me by telling me what :/ means???!?? Its like every time you say you miss me, this emoticon will be attached and i have no idea what it means.unhappy, sad, confused or what??? tell meeeee!

went to ecp with a few turnstille casuals to cycle. And ecp is fast becoming my second favourite hunt not just because its quiet on weekdays, but also because that place is pretty nostalgic.
Thats the place a guy other than my dad actually peeled prawns for me and i didnt reject. The place you first hold me hands, lay it near my heart and we counted stars together. The place i so want time to freeze.
even though this love game may not bring us anywhere, i guess i'm contented enough.for now.

didn't see you-know-who today which is quite depressing but am secretly relieved just because i know i'll break even more curfews and thats not good.lots of things are happening back in indo and breaking the curfew will probably be a stupid idea i'll regret.everything happens for a reason so it's not that bad a thing i hope.

Even though, i really do miss you quite a bit and will only see you next week..mmm.oh wells :(

friday's doomsday and i really dont want to think about! Double :(

the internet thing on mobile phones is really neat and addictive.i can so understand why he's practically married to the iphone now!